What is going on here?

I realise that no one actually is asking this about my blog, because it’s a personal blog that has infrequent activity, at best, but I still feel I should explain myself. The infrequency of posts to the blog can be simply explained by my lack of organisation, my habit of procrastination and the fact that I have a really inefficient style of writing. I am very bad at just, regularly writing. The feeling or ‘inspiration’, I suppose, has to hit me. People like Neil Gaiman or Stephen King, who I’m not comparing myself to, let’s be clear, that can write anywhere from 50 words to 6 pages a day, are brilliant. I am not. For as long as I have been able to write, I have not been able to do that. Maybe with practice I could but I have tried, very hard, and gotten no closer to possessing this ability. I can sit there with an empty page or document for hours. Any normal person who isn’t paid to write cannot justify spending that long in a day trying to do something that isn’t happening for them. Everyone is busy all the time now and that’s how life is. I’m not paid to write, it actually costs me to write things, which means I also can’t justify it. There’s not only the time it takes to actually write stuff, but I have to pay for the domain of this website and the other bits that come with it to make it function. Those are all costs. However, there has been nothing on here for a while and this is not the first time that’s happened. To be honest, I have actually been writing stuff, but it’s not been about soccer. I’ve kind of doubled down on the fiction and stories. Where are they though? They’re entered into a few different writing competitions, which means that I’m not actually allowed to post or publish them anywhere. They have to be judged for those competitions before I can use them again, many of which don’t actually finish until the autumn of 2024. So, I’m waiting to be allowed to put my own work on my own website, which sounds dumb. It’s a bit of a catch-22 and a nightmare situation for anyone that writes fiction, stories or poetry. You’ve produced a piece of work, gotten it to the point that you’re happy with it, aaaaand then you can’t use it until it’s been judged by a panel. So, there will very likely be less original stories on this site for the next few months and there will possibly be more stuff about soccer or, very possibly, there will be nothing until a surge of motivation to write hits me. The soccer stuff is often a pain to write. There’s so much research involved, and I have to keep double checking my facts when writing the very few things I have about the sport. I’ve also been in a rut for a very long time now and I’m hoping that things are going to change over the next while. I’ll, hopefully, have plenty of time to write stuff that hardly anyone reads, makes me no money and doesn’t get me any work or a job, in the next month or two when I’m having knee surgery and will be laid up, recovering from knee surgery. I know that this is an update that absolutely no one asked for or will read, but I feel better for saying it.